Faithfulness,Grace and Disappointment

I want to start off by saying thank you to all of you who have been standing in prayer with us over the last several days. We truly have felt God’s grace in knowing that you were praying for us.

It’s been a long weekend

On Thursday, about the time that many of you received our last update, we got a phone call from our adoption caseworker. She told us that the birth mom was being released from the hospital. She wanted to take the baby home for a couple of days because she wanted to make sure she was making the right decision. Our caseworker told us that, most of the time, if a mom takes the baby home from the hospital she will decide to parent the baby. She also thought that they would probably not hear from the mother again.

As heartbreaking as this phone call was, we knew that the mother needed this time to make the hard decision of whether to place or to parent. We also knew that our caseworker was right and this would probably mean we would not be bringing this baby into our home.

Logan felt strongly from the Lord that we were to pray that the mom would call one more time to tell the adoption agency that she had decided to parent instead of just taking the baby home and getting into a routine and moving on. We have been praying all along that the mom would know what she was supposed to do and that she would have confidence in her decision. Calling the adoption agency to say she was parenting would be a good indication that she was confident in her decision.

The phone rang

The phone rang on Monday morning and it was our caseworker on the other end of the line. She had just got off the phone with the mom and she had called in one more time to let them know that she prayed all weekend and decided to parent. It was a direct answer to prayer. A few minutes earlier Logan was spending sometime in prayer and had asked God to prompt the mom to call and it was at that exact moment that she called the adoption agency.

Faithfulness, Grace, and Disappointment

Our two main prayers since we got the call that we might possibly get this baby have been 1.) that God would put this little guy right were he needs to be and 2.) that the mom would be confident in her decision to either place or parent.

We have seen the faithfulness of God at work over the last week as the baby has been born and the mom prayerfully wrestled over the decision to place or parent. We are confident that God has heard the many prayers that have been prayed over this situation and that He has been at work all along. It is because of this that we can say with confidence that this little guy is supposed to be with his mom, that she loves him, and that God is going to help her raise this child.

We have also experienced the grace of God in a new dimension. Way back in 2008, when we were in Washington D.C. praying for the end of abortion and revival in America God was planting a desire in our hearts about adoption. We already had the desire to have children and maybe even adopt, but God was adding a new desire. He added the desire to be a living answer to a girl in a crisis pregnancy situation. It was this desire that eventually lead us to begin the adoption process.

We know this process was a direct answer to those prayers and God’s grace in our life. We were able to be a support and a real alternative to a girl in a crisis pregnancy situation. Even though she decided to parent, she knew that she wasn’t backed into a corner. She knew that there was a family that was willing to help her and raise her baby if she felt like she couldn’t.

To be honest, our hearts are a little sad right now. We know God will give us children someday and our hearts are not sad simply because we didn’t get a baby. In praying and getting ready for the possibility of this little guy coming home with us, we had to open our hearts up to him. Because of this we do have a sense disappointment and loss of what could have been.

In the midst of our sadness we are confident in God’s faithfulness and grace and know that He is working all things together for our good because we love Him and have said yes to His purposes in our lives.

Thanks again to all of you who have been standing in prayer with us during this journey. For now it’s back to the waiting game and praying for God’s perfect timing in our lives.

Adoption Update

As mosts of you know, Logan and I have been going through an adoption process for about a year now. Right now we are possibly approaching the finish line of that journey and the starting line of the new journey of parenthood. But we need your prayers. The next few days are very important for a young lady who is thinking about placing her little baby with us, for the baby and for Logan and I.

Let me catch you up

About a month ago we got a call from our adoption case worker that a girl in a crisis pregnancy situation has chosen Logan and I as adoptive parents for her baby. Our case worker warned us that there would be a significant possibility that the mom might change her mind once the child was born. As we prayed about what we should do, we felt like we were supposed to say yes and make our home available if the mom were to decide to place the baby with us.

The very next day we met with the mom and the adoption case worker. We have been praying for the mother of the child we would adopt for along time now. It is very exciting to think that we can now put a face to our prayers. Being able to see her face in our minds as we pray for her has made it much easier to pray for her and the baby. We left the meeting with excitement in our hearts at the possibility of bringing a baby into our home and being an answer to prayer for a mom in a really tough situation.

This past Tuesday, the baby was born. Both mom and baby boy are doing fine. She had a c-section and is pretty sore. In the state of Texas, a mother cannot terminate her parental rights until the baby is 48-hours old. That 48-hours has technically passed and now she has to make the hard choice of wether to place the little guy with us or choose to raise him herself.

Please be in prayer over the next few days for the mom, the baby boy, and Logan and I.

Here are a few prayer points

  • That mom and baby would both continue to be healthy. Specifically that the mom would heal quickly from the c-section.
  • That the mom would be able to hear God and make the most loving decision for her baby.
  • That the mom would have no regrets with her decision.
  • That the baby would not sense any of the tension and stress that is surrounding his little life right now.
  • That Logan and I would be able to wait patiently as the mom prays and comes to a decision.
  • Most of all that this little guy would be placed right where God wants him to be.

We will keep you updated with more information as it becomes available. We know that God has good plans for the mom, the baby, and for us. We would love to bring this little guy into our family, but most of all we want God’s will for his life to happen. Thanks for standing in prayer with us.

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